Taking Stock :: January

on 3.2.16

Feeling proud of myself for the month of January. Now that the demands on my time have changed, I have been able to stay focused, and therefore be successful at sticking to something. Excited to see it continue!

Making :  candles

Organized : my kitchen

Sketching : hand lettering

Cooking : Salmon and broccoli for health and lots of 


Drinking : lemon water and green tea even though it

               tastes terrible!

Reading: 8 Weeks to Optimal Health, 

              52 Small Changes

Wanting: everything to be organized NOW!

Looking: forward to the future

Health : focused on getting back into the habit of 
             taking a multivitamin
Playing: Jeopardy on tv with my husband, it is my all

             time favorite, and we believe we are 
             keeping Alzheimers at bay doing so.

Deciding: to jump in slowly and be kind to myself

Wishing: for some mum time with my son

Blogging: more frequently

Enjoying: time practicing hand lettering

Waiting: for God to do what only He can do

Liking: the many free things you can learn on the 

Participating: in finding color, and mindful moments

Wondering: why you do all the right things, and it 

                  still doesn't turn out the way you had
Loving: this new season in life

Considering: going on a summer trip to meet up 

                   with my photography tribe

Watching: the new X-Files

Hoping: this trial will not last long

Needing: more time with God

Growing: french lavender in my kitchen

Smelling: citrus essential oils

Wearing: lots of plaid, still

Following: Dr. Weils supplement plan

Knowing: that God is in control

Pondering : what the purpose of my blog is

Thinking: that we live in the times the Bible speaks of

              when it says what is right will be wrong
              and what is wrong will be right 

Admiring: Rand Paul

Sorting: through life and that which gathers

Buying: art supplies and all glass storage containers

Getting: stronger, and more flexible as I did a month 

             of push ups and continuing to stretch 

Bookmarking: a lot of hand lettering freebies and 

                     tutorials, here is a great one 
                                            Dawn Nicole

Disliking: when people jump on political bandwagons

              without counting the cost

Opening: the written word more often

Learning: spanish, hand lettering, and more than
               I ever wanted to know about my 

Giggling: at this video 3 year old Mateo

Feeling: a lot of emotional ups and downs

Snacking: on too much cheese, still.

Excited : for a friend who had a life breakthrough!

Goal : get back to adding photos to Flickr

Listening: to this version of Jolene by Miley Cyrus 
               who my momma heart aches for.  She did 
               an amazing job on this song.

Bible Study : Philippians

Memorizing : The Sermon on the Mount, here is 
                    what I have so far if you might like to 

Matthew 5:1-5 
Seeing the crowds, he went up on the mountain, and when he sat down, his disciples came to him.  And he opened his mouth and taught them saying.
Blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.  
Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.

:: yellow ::

on 2.2.16

Some painters 
transform the sun
into a
yellow spot, 
transform a 
yellow spot 
the sun.

~ Pablo Picasso

Finding :: yellow :: 

:: red ::

on 27.1.16

are my
for week 1
:: red ::

                  Go for it now. The future is promised to no one. ~Wayne Dyer

the sixty second photograph

on 23.1.16

The sixty second photograph
I can dig it. 
Found while visiting Hula Seventy.
I love the concept.
So will you.


on 22.1.16

Last year about this time, I talked about a website I was following that does daily Bible studies called She Reads Truth.  I love this site, and they started a brother site called He Reads Truth.  My husband and I did their advent series simultaneously this past Christmas as well as their study of Daniel.  I really enjoyed it. Some of the studies are topical and some go through whole books. They are not intense studies, more devotional in nature, and the scriptures studied are included as a link.  The link takes you to Biblia.com where you can choose from different Bible translations, and read two different ones side by side. 
I just finished a short study on hospitality and I really learned to see hospitality differently. Rather than something that involves inviting people into your home, it is something that we do each day when we interact with others.   Here is a snippet from the final day.
Hospitality is not just about the table. It’s about the people. It’s about the Gospel.
We’ve said that Jesus is the Ultimate Inviter. And what He invites us to is not just a gathering, not just a meal, but a whole new life.
The Gospel is life-giving. Hospitality is actively seeking to share that life with others.It is taking the gift of new life we have in Christ and giving it away with both careful intention and unabashed enthusiasm.

Update: The next study I am going to do is Philippians should you care to join me. 

:: red ::

on 20.1.16

Joining Xanthe and Andrea once again for their 
#colorcolourlover series on Instagram.

week 1   :: red ::

i love cool colors,
so this is not a color
you will find much of
in my world,
for plaid,
you can't have plaid
without red,
i love plaid.

Join in the fun!

fonts + art = hand lettering

on 19.1.16

I love fonts!
I love art!
I love hand lettering!
I am a little obsessed with Jacques & Gilles 
which is very trendy right now,
but I can't help myself, 
I think it's beautiful. 


on 18.1.16

It's 2016, a new year......

I was trying to decide if I should post anything about my expectations, my goals, my hopes in the new year.   I was really leaning towards not doing it.

It's embarrassing.

I start out with so much hope, promise, and determination, only to let myself down. 

I hate that. 

And what is this blog anyways, I can't decide.  I don't really know what my purpose is.

And because of that it is hard to make goals.

But then I found that quote and I felt encouraged.

So I decided to continue on.......

There is one thing that is different. 

I am attempting to not be so gung-ho, guns a blazing, full monty about everything. 

The struggle is real. 

So for example, whenever I get on a workout kick, I don't slowly begin to do so.  I start  week 1, working out 5 days a week, strength training 3 days a week, and stretching daily.  When I don't keep this up, I get disgusted and things go bad quickly.  My goal now is to slowly add workouts to my life, allowing myself to create to new habits naturally. What a concept, huh?  My goal has also changed from losing weight, to just being my healthiest self. 

I started this year out by not signing up for every photography class I could find, and not putting every creative idea I had into practice. On days that I struggle with letting life get in the way of creativity, I am attempting to try things in blocks of time.  So one hour for cleaning, one hour for reading, one hour for messing around, and one hour for painting etc. I have liked it so far. 

I plan to attempt to designate days to certain tasks, Monday photography, Tuesdays blogging, Wednesday art, Thursday lettering. Of course I can take photos when ever I want to, but designating a day might help me to follow through with projects, regrouping, social media, and or just making time to jump into something bigger. 

Several things that I read have said how important it is to share your practice, your work, your art on your blog or other social media.  I guess.......I'm gonna give that a try. It is very uncomfortable for me, but then I think why should it be? 

It is what it is.


What's cooking

on 6.11.15

I thought I would do a post of some of the newest things I have been cooking.  The ones I am sharing today have all come from the internet.  Why is it that autumn inspires us to cook and bake?  Not only cook and bake, but also to cook and bake new recipes, at least it does that to me.  I get so tired of what we are eating, and I just want to know what everyone else is eating.  I am not a food lover, in fact I don't even love to cook, but I love the idea of it.  I cook out of necessity so that we can eat healthy scratch meals.  I just get bored with food, and nothing sounds good so I scour for new things. I love watching chefs because they really do love food, and their passion inspires me.  When it comes to baking, I learned everything I know from Martha Stewart.  She turned baking into an art form, and that got my attention. You notice I didn't say cooking, that's because Martha cooks WAY above my cooking scale.  There are always ingredients I have never heard of, or they just scare me.  I mean an onion sandwich, who would ever......In all seriousness, I have made several cooking recipes but they have always been the easy ones.  We have been making the same turkey for Thanksgiving for at least 15 years.  It is a BBQ'd turkey with a homemade sauce that I got out of her magazine and it is amazing! So I have cooked a few of her recipes or recipes from her magazine so I guess that counts. 

So below are some of the recipes that I have tried and a comment or two.

So recipe is tasty and quick, however leftovers are not nearly as good.

Stuffed Pepper Soup from Cooking Classy
This was a huge hit, so delicious!  She recommends not adding the rice directly to the soup if you want to eat leftovers, however I did add it, and didn't find there to be an issue with sogginess.  

Ranch Cheddar Chicken by Damn Delicious

Another delicious one with little prep and bakes quickly.

Art that inspires

on 5.11.15

 Well, I already messed up and missed a day of my 30 days of blogging.  I am taking stock and it is taking me longer than I expected. Today I am sharing something that inspires me. The photo's that follow are examples of the work of artist Andrew Myers.  I love it when I come across something that just stuns me, surprises me, and excites me.  To have this kind of vision, and to take something so ordinary and plain and use it in a way that represents something as extraordinary as the human face in 3D and do it to perfection, just amazing.  It is hard enough drawing somebody and working out the kinks so that it really is a true representation of not just a person, but a specific person.  Imagine doing it on this large of a scale with these materials in 3D.....   

3D art screws:


on 3.11.15

  1. 1.
    with no special or distinctive features; normal; plain or undistinguished.

  1. 1.
    what is commonplace or standard.

So my friend Tracie started a project that involved capturing the ordinary in her life.  I have just loved what she has been capturing! She is not only a gifted photographer, but a gifted writer.  Her words, especially those that follow her ordinary captures are so honest, open, and paint a lovely story. This is not an area that I am gifted in, so I find it very inspiring.  When I take a picture I hope that it captures what I want to say.  I love great quotes and often use them instead of my own words.  This is one of those times where I have to remind myself, it is what it is, right?  I love the ordinary, and I love documenting the ordinary.  This is something that I often get teased about when it comes to taking photos.  I take the obvious photo, and then I get in real close and get the details, those little things that you don't realize matter today, details that will long be forgotten but will perhaps be appreciated when looked back upon one day. Today they are ordinary so why would anyone care?  It requires insight to know that one day you WILL care, one day those little ordinary details will have extraordinary meaning. I know this to be true. So I asked Tracie if she minded if I joined in.  Her project is a 365 project, far too ambitious for me at this time.  I am just going to chime in from time to time with my ordinary capture.  I love too that Tracie waits, she doesn't go looking for it, but waits until it finds her. beautiful. 

Here is a video that really demonstrates the legacy of a photograph, the ordinary details of a life lived. I have been talking a lot about this lately to some people....cough cough. 

So with out further ado, here is my first capture of the ordinary, candles. I am known for lighting candles, I do it often.  I love candles, they transform an atmosphere, they create mood, scent, warmth, and coziness. It doesn't matter the time of day, I light a candle.  At night, I light several candles. It's a beautiful thing. My husband and I joke because it seems that every house we have lived in has found itself with wax in the carpet. A few days ago, there was an incident, a near miss. 
There is a lady that when I run into her while out and about always refers to me as the one who turned her on to candles. We were working on a homeschool project years ago, and she came to my house several times.  I had candles lit. To me it is everyday, ordinary.  Apparently that is not the case for everyone.  She just loved that there were candles lit, and told me when she left she was going to the store to buy some for her house. Of course running through my head was "what, you don't own any candles, how can that be".
Last year when I went on my first trip away from home to meet up with my photography friends, I brought gifts.....all natural candles. surprise.  I recently visited my daughter in her new home, and what did I find?  Several lit candles, and a candle mishap, so proud. In her words, "I am my mother's daughter".

NaBloPoMo Month

on 2.11.15

It is National Blog Posting Month, which is a challenge to post once every day for the month of November.  There is only one rule,  that you post every day. So as you can see I have already broken the one and only rule.  Seriously, I only learned about this last night.  I could have said, "meh, too late, maybe next year", but I didn't.  I am terrible at consistency, and this will be good for me.  I was going to do a big post, but I didn't around to it until now, and I have to be to work soon.  Again, I could have said, "nope, not happening", but I didn't.  I am going to let this little tidbit be my post for today, and I am going to be ok with it. Every day is a new day, tomorrow will be better. 

“Isn't it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet?” 


on 18.9.15

As I spoke of in my last post called Creative Thursdays, this is my first week for attempting to be creative on certain days. Of course I can be creative when ever I want to, but this is an experiment to help create habits of creating regardless of how perfect my world is around me.  Normally if I only have 20 minutes to spare, that means no to creativity.  I feel like I need hours, even a whole day.  I am learning to just do it. This piece below that is not done in any way shape or form, is one such example.  I had about 20 minutes before I needed to leave for a football game.  So I just drew my number 2, and then got the first layer of paint on.  I forgot to take a before picture, and this is not the finished project, just the beginning.  I love the number 2, and 2 2's are even better! At our last house I had painted a huge 2 on a wall that met our vaulted ceiling.  Here at this place, I have tried not to paint on the walls, as I will have to paint it back when we leave. I am losing that battle.  I have some antique 2's, but was really feeling the need for more, so I decided to do one in a size that might fit in with some photographs.  

For my photography this week, I worked on my polaroids.  I thought I might do a series called a girl and her hat.  I have this straw hat, and it is quickly becoming my favorite.  Ok, well it is also my only straw hat because it would seem I have a very large head by industry standards, and hats that fit are hard to come by.  The other 3 are some flower photos that I actually purchased this round film specifically for, and I am really glad I did.  I love it!  

These photos of my projects are just two photos I snapped quickly with my iPod, not intending to use them for this purpose.  But as I was sitting here, I knew that if I didn't write this post now, I wouldn't end up doing it at all.  So I decided for the sake of accomplishment, I would post regardless.  If I am successful in the two art days, maybe I will add a blog day.  Maybe then I would post more that once every couple of months.  A girl can dream......

creative thursdays

on 16.9.15

I am currently reading a book called Creative Thursdays.  It is a quick read that talks about the creative process and that which can hold us back. It really has been a freeing book for me to read.  I love creating, designing, making, but I just don't make enough time for it.  I get everything ready for a project and then I procrastinate ever starting it.  I have to clean my house first or do some other chore first, or check my fb, or catch up on emails, or.........or..........or.........you get the picture.  I have never understood why I am this way considering how excited I am to do the project to begin with.  I just figured it was a me thing, but according to this book it is actually a very common trait with us creatives. What, there are others like me out there?  Honestly, that felt very freeing to know.  One of the things that she suggests in the book is making art a habit.  She suggests picking one day a week, a month, or whatever works and just creating something.  It doesn't have to be a "project", in fact it is better, if you have issues with starting and or finishing to pick something that can be done in one setting.  Just create, just paint, just draw, just do and then share as a form of accountability. Start with small little canvases, and paint anything that comes to mind.  These are not master pieces, they may not even be your style, or taste, this is just about forming a habit of creating. So I have decided to make Monday's and Wednesday's my creative days.  Monday will be my photography day as I am still trying to get my mojo back, and Wednesday will be my art day.  I am really good at starting things but not necessarily sticking to them.  I always try to do everything, get overwhelmed and over scheduled and in the end I finish nothing.  So just a warning this could end this way as well.  I beat myself up about this always, but I am learning more and more to just say it is what it is.  I can't be afraid to stop doing something that isn't working for me because I will see it as a failure. This is an experiment, I will see how it goes. 

book review

on 15.9.15

Well I have not done much on my blog this whole summer except update my summer manifesto occasionally. Trying to get back into a groove, so I thought I would review a book I just finished.  It is called Seven by Jen Hatmaker, and I really enjoyed it.  I love her sense of humor, it reminded a lot of my own, and of my best friend.  Actually I thought if you combined myself and Tanya, you would get Jen Hatmaker. And it must be mentioned, Jen claims to have a big head, like literally.  I confess, I do too.  Of course I wouldn't know this if it weren't for the hat making industry who makes hats that say one size fits all, and I can't even get it around the very top portion of my head. Even when hats say M/L rarely do they fit my head.  It makes for lots of laughing when hat shopping with Tanya, by that I mean she really splits a gut at how ridiculous I look.  She can put on any hat, and it looks fabulous, me, nada. First world problem, right......  So when I read that about Jen, I immediately bonded, us big headed ladies have to stick together! I loved the premise of the book, and closed the last page not only inspired, but also feeling consoled.  I have survivors guilt, why not me guilt, guilt period, some of which is good common sense, but not all.  She gave me a little perspective for seeing it biblically. Jen says : Hear this: I don't think God wants you at war with yourself.  He sent the Prince of peace to soothe those tumultuous waters already.  Self-deprecation is a cruel response to Jesus.  Guilt is not Jesus' medium.  He is battling for global redemption right now; His objective hardly includes huddling in the corner with us, rehashing our shame again.  He finished that discussion on the cross.  Plus, there's no time for that.  Did you hear that, Jesus is not in the medium of guilt.  That is the truth.  I should make a sign to hang in my house that says that.  

I loved hearing about their church and their world view concerning it.  That is so where I am, but not necessarily my church.  I am trying to figure out what I need to do about it, what God would have me do. More guilt. Right now there are Christian refugees that are fighting for their life, and I am glittering stuff for an upcoming wedding, trying to carve out time for art, and happy to get to enjoy more warm weather before the cool weather moves in. It rolls through my head constantly, especially any time I am enjoying myself or feel excited about something. I have heard stories of retired military people going over there to fight along side others, and well as help the refugees,  praise God. 

It was entertaining to read Jen's experience going through the different months.  I related to several of those occasions as well.  The one thing I wasn't in agreement about was her view of environmentalism, had to part ways a little bit there. I plan to explore her resources for companies with a conscience.  I recently found out about the documentary on Netflix called The True Cost that is about the unconscionable things that are happening all for fashion. 

In month seven that covered fasting from stress.  I loved the idea of honoring the hours through prayer pauses, seven to be exact, every day.  This is a practice that goes way back.  I love how it makes stop, and be mindful .   I usually pray through out my day, but I like the fact that there are specific times, with specific purposes based on the hour.  I am going to work on incorporating that to some extent.

So if any of this appeals to you, or you want to join the mutiny against excess, then this book may be for you. It will open your eyes, and support you through the journey. I don't think you will be disappointed.  Here is a link the Jen Hatmaker's website.

I will leave you with a photo of myself taken by Tanya who could barely contain herself long enough to take this picture.  This is a beanie, it's supposed to have stretch, and yet it was so tight around my head that is was distorting my eyes and forehead which is not evident in the photo, but you can see how tight that thing is. It should have a nice slouchy fit.

taking stock

on 2.7.15

June :: 2015

Made: a stamped t-shirt with the NowYOU logo thanks to some amazing ladies who made it all possible!

Cooked: many things for Yusei to try
Drank: some green tea

Read: 7 or seven, I am loving it!

Wanted:  to be able to enjoy the outdoors

Played:  monopoly and won!

Decided: I haven't decided yet....irony

Enjoyed: the massive amounts of thunderstorms, lightening, and rain showers, I mean floods we have had
Liked: that the heat finally arrived 

Wondered: if it was a good idea to hang a hammock chair from my rental balcony....oh snap

Loved:  my hammock chair

Pondered: the law of unintended consequences of the Supreme Court decision and what it means to REALLY give ones life away

Started: learning more about stamping 

Watched: many lightening storms light up the sky

Hoped: I would hear some words of wisdom that would shift my perspective

Needed: to play catch up with everything 

Smelled: Paddywax natural candles

Wore: a dress with my jeans

Noticed: the intolerant tone against those with differing opinions on fb after Supreme Court decision

Knew: how this story ends

Admired: Rand Paul

Sorted: my thoughts

Bought: my husband some shirts

Got: to spend time in nature enjoying the many wild flowers with Tanya, and my family

Finally:  started taking stock again

Disliked: that an apartment building not far from here was hit by lightening, what the heck?

Felt: excited to take Yusei to Devils Bathtub

Following:  Jen Hatmaker

Snacked: on too much cheese

Wished: for a better routine

Helped: Yusei understand more english
Discovered: we now have neighbors below us

Scripture Reading: Galations 5 :22-23 
But the fruit of the spirit is love, peace, patients, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control, against such things there is no law.

summer manifesto 2015

I love the idea of a summer manifesto.  I have done them before, but never posted it on my blog, usually I just write it on our chalkboard wall. It is a great way of not letting the summer slip away!  So here we go.

1.  go camping

2.  make 4 different new to us pies

3.  drink homemade lemonade often

4.  get through my summer reading list

5.  spend mornings with tea and reading on

     the balcony

6.  try juicing

7.  go to a drive-in movie

8.  make video recording one second a day

9.  take evening walks

10. take art class

11. print out my 40 + rolls of film

12. practice doodling and drawing

13. visit Tanya in Wyoming

14. watch the sunrise with my family

15. visit the ocean ~ we live in the mid-west

    but I had to add it in hopes of....

16. visit junk store in Belle Fourche

17. just be

18. try something new

19. eat at the local lunch truck

20. visit the farmers market often

21. sit under a tree and read

22. go paddle boarding

23. make homemade pizza

24. wear skirts and dresses often

25. find / enjoy silence

26. revisit my memorization of the beatitudes

27. empty the garage of stuff

28. unplug 

29. get my photo mojo back

30. use my polaroid

31. maybe, just maybe jump from the rock
      that is much higher than my comfort 
32. visit hippie hole

33. go to devils bathtub

34. try to not add anything else to this list
      after I post it

7 Most Stylish Couches

on 23.4.15

Well, we are finally done moving.  Thank you Jesus!  I really felt like it would never end.  We are still in the process of purging and downsizing.  We have moved a 4 bedroom house, with a 2 car garage into a 3 bedroom apartment with a single garage.  The garage is busting at the seams to say the least, so the battle continues.  I have sold several pieces of furniture, as well as this and that.  We sold our living room furniture and kept the family room sectional for now, until I find a replacement.  We are not only downsizing, but I really only want to surround myself with things I love. If I love something, but can't afford it, then I should wait or live without it, not compromise and buy something I can afford for now.  I want things that have value, not because they were purchased at a high end store, but because they were made by someone who was doing something they loved, who cared about the details, who made it with passion, which means more often than not, not store bought. I live on a very tight budget, so this should be interesting, but maybe that is where more of the minimalist part comes in.  Having one thing you absolutely love, versus having ten things you like. In the instances of the past when I was able to buy the exact thing that I loved, I can say, I still love it today.  Of the things that I bought because of need, or affordability, I am only so happy to let them go. It is a process, and a matter of changing your thinking, as my husband has already had to remind me not to compromise.

So one of the purchases I want to make is a new couch.  It will be the only couch we have, so I want it to be something I really like, as well as comfortable for the guys in my life.  This should be interesting.  Where I live, the furniture stores SUCK!  This means I will not be purchasing locally, and can not try out how comfortable they are which worries me a bit.  I once found a couch at Ikea online that I thought would be great.  We traveled to purchase couch and other items, only to find that the couch was very stiff and uncomfortable.  Oh snap.  Anyways this couch will be lounged on, read on, knitted on, and napped on.  I am really loving the vintage look, but several of the couches I have really liked, don't exactly look like they would be comfortable for anything other than upright sitting. Below are seven couches that I do really love, but all may not be as practical as I would like.  I guess I will have to rely heavily on reviews.  The other decision I have to make is the color.  I would love a turquoise couch, but then I thought maybe I should go with grey and accent with my favorite color. Thoughts?

These couches that I choose are not necessarily ones I can afford, but you have to start somewhere.  Once I narrow it down to a specific style, then I can figure out the affordable option.  So without further ado, here are my choices.

Bliss Down-Filled 2-Piece Chaise Sectional
                                                   West Elm

I really like this one because it is handmade in the USA, and stuffed with down.  The designer said she set out to create the most comfortable sofa she could, one that everyone would want to sit on. I do wish you could choose the stain for the feet, but you can't.  The description sounds wonderful, the only things is it lacks some of the vintage detail I am loving in the other couches.  This is the grey color in linen, or I would one of these colors both in velvet.
Performance Velvet, Lagoon  Performance Velvet, Shadow
Edith Sofa
                                                  Dot & Bo

I really love this one, the color is perfect, the style is perfect, though it does lack the built in chaise (for the guys), and I am not sure how great it would be for lounging.  There are no reviews to read.

Spiers Sofa in Citron
                                          Dot & Bo

This one only comes in this color, which is still a perfect compliment to my home. Again another great style, but would it work for a family room setting?  I can hear those men in my life complaining about its lack of functionality. 

Hughes Sectional                                                        Joybird

This one seems like a great compromise, with great style, color, and a built in chaise. I think it marries my style, with the lounge factor, but is it really comfortable?  

Petrie 2-Piece Sectional Sofa
                  Crate and Barrel

This one is ok. It does have a vintage feel to it, and the built in chaise, however this is the only color option for me, and the fabric is a nubby one.  It is among the most expensive.

Delano Tufted Sectional Sofa in Laguna
                                                    Joss and Main

This one only comes in this color, which I do like, but it might be a little too light for something that would get a lot of use.  The style is there as well as the possible lounge factor. 

Peggy Mid-Century Chaise Sectional
                                                       West Elm

This is another one from West Elm, which has the style I like, and it looks really comfy.  Also handcrafted, and assembled in the USA. The same colors are available as with the first couch from West Elm.
Performance Velvet, Lagoon Performance Velvet, Shadow